Seriously. There needs to be more free and unrelated to me advice systems out there. I mean, go google it. No, don’t.. I’m just kidding. Its a mess.
Get a life. Get a lawyer, again. Get your nails done. God will forgive you. Self-care, damnit. Ladies night. kids are resilient. Worry. Drink. Be true and Authentic. Don’t say anything to anyone, you might damage the kids. Screw him. Preserve the ideal for the kids. Don’t cry in front of them. Cry in front of them. Don’t drink, but if you do, don’t tell anyone. Get a lawyer, again. Don’t feel intimate with them anymore, don’t pretend you knew each other, ever.
sigh. damn. there’s a lot. I can’t ‘keyword optimize’ because i hate that shit. i can barely capitalize. there is so much, and every single couple who divorces, and woman who is part of that, is unique. so a bath every day for the first four months worked for me, but won’t work for you. yes, yes, this is my bath.
No, no its not.
Numbing is great, like , fucking great. but doesn’t actually help with grief, or devastation. its still there, lurking. the only way through it is THROUGH it. if you put it off, its just waiting for you. might as well hit it with a bat again and again… get the mugger out of the freaking equation.
so says i.
my kids were freaked out by my bathing so often. but it was so warm. and solitary. and i was clean.
which is more than i am today.