/again and again and again. kate, you must practice saying no to alcohol. kate, you must practice knowing yourself.
kate, you must learn more and more about your own fears and insecurities. all the time, focus on them all the damn time, because you will be pushed and plucked and placed into situations where you will be nudged,
making the first date is really easy for me. choosing to face the second is much more daunting i think . . . its the challenge to my system, a challenge to my arrogance that demands that i not have ‘feelings’… a second date demands consideration, i think.
maybe this is why i tend to just have first dates that last for months. its a simple act of self-protection. call it what you will. its worked for me up until this point, but it strains now, pulls against the bit.
i’m just tired.
i wanted to have breakfast out today, but my date had a hangover and needed extra time to recover. so i gave him some.
i call bullshit.