I’m annoyed, I’m annoyed, I’m annoyed.
many things: 1. i had a whiskey last night and i loved it and was sober when i went to bed and i feel groggy today and that is annoying.
2. a friend that i know well pointed out to me that not everything is a gift. murder, abuse, auschwitz. not gifts. and then i was bummed out. of course not everything is a gift. i was humbled. and my priviledge was painted on my face. and i have to work on how i remember and incorporate. annoying work.
3. my kids are gone til monday and i should have planned how to entertain myself but i didn’t and i am SO ANNOYED by myself.
OH MY GOD I AM SO ANNOYED.
Its possible that this dinner is causing me the problem and the whiskey was just fine. but fuck it. fuck it all.
oh my god, a national emergency?! fuck it all.